Jeremy was away on a work trip for the past few days and I have been pretty much solo with the kids. My sweet friend Maggie as given up her evenings to help me with bedtime and has stayed over to be there in an emergency for which I am beyond thankful but for the most part its been on me to make sure these little ones are clean and fed etc. It's been a wild ride and here are some high and low lights.
When we were ona walk and a guy jogged by without a shirt at which Levi piped up loudly, "Look! Man running nudie!"
He has taken to telling me "no"
His huge meltdowns when he doesn't get his way. Holy Smokes, hello toddlerhood!
This afternoon when Nora was on the playmat and Levi crawled in next to her and just snuggled as she chatted to him.
Levi was frustrated when he was trying to "hold Nora" which involved him
pullingat her when she was in her baby seat, and his reaction to me
telling him no was so smack her hard on the head at which point she
cried so hard it broke my heart.
The way I swiped at Levi's leg to.move him out the way and shouted in anger and the way he looked at me when I sat him hard on the floor and yelled that he was never to do that again.
The way Levi started to refer to himself as a "big boy" when he does something I ask of him.
Levi's growing up includes his crib climbing and inability or at least refusal to fall asleep alone. Making naps and bedtime long and stressful for everyone.
The way I raised my voice at him trying to get him to stay in the crib and lost my cool when he didn't. The way I haven't made a plan to help him transition to a bed if that is actually what we are doing and the guilt i feel because my lack of planning is having unpleasant consequences for us both.
Jeremy comes home tomorrow
No bad or Ugly for that, it's just good news.
And the BEST
God's grace is constant and his mercies are new every morning. He forgives when I ask and hear my prayers when I call out in desperation. He is my ever present help in times of trouble and he renews my mind over and over. He is my Source and my Rock. With His help alone, I can hope to be something of the parent I desire to be.