At 1.30am I decided to let J sleep instead of having him change Levi's diaper - usually he does the diaper change while I set up to feed the munchkin, and then he can go back to sleep while Levi feeds - anyway, I was wide awake and Levi wasn't acting frantic to eat so I just took one for Team Blocher and took him to change him myself.
It was bad. It was a blow out. A real blow out. An 'up the back', 'all over his clothes' blow out. I should mention, it was his first real blow out. I hoped that this wasn't a sign of things to come in the rest of the day.
Levi was up to feed every 2.5 - 3 hours last night. Our new normal, and totally do-able. Tiring yes, but it is amazing how little sleep you can function on and how quickly you can adjust to a new normal when it comes to sleep. I still try to nap, and I sleep when he sleeps well into late morning, but so far it's working for us.
Anyway, Levi had a tough time falling into a deep sleep this morning and was boycotting naps lasting more than about 20 minutes, but acting like he had been asleep for hours and was waking up starving. I was feeding him constantly, or at least that's how it felt. For my still healing body this was tough (and sore) but I believe he really wanted to eat and wasn't just wanting comfort. I try to give the pacifier when I think he just needs help to settle, sometimes that works, but sometimes he calls me out and tells me how wrong I am!
I took him for a walk in the stroller to try and soothe him to sleep. He was mad and did not appreciate my efforts, he screamed for a couple of blocks before drifting off. My intention was to walk to the Post Office and get stamps to mail our birth announcements. About a third of the way there, then sun was hotter than I had expected and with every step I felt more tired. I decided that it was not in our best interests to continue on this errand. We turned around and I hoped that I would have a few minutes to nap or make lunch. Of course, as soon as we walked in the door by sweet boy decided to wake up. After a quick feed he went back to sleep and I managed to heat up leftovers from dinner last night that our sweet friend Suzanne made. It certainly made life much easier to have such a quick but nutritious lunch. I was even able to eat 3/4's of it before Levi woke from that cat nap :)
After another full feeding he went back to sleep and I was able to put him down in the swing and he has been there since, it's been an hour and a half, and I am hoping I have another half hour left.
In the mean time, I cleaned the kitchen, did a load of laundry, tidied and sorted the clothes in Levi's crib and put them away as well as finding homes for a bunch of baby gifts that we have received in the last week. Our baby is well loved!
I also put the inserts in the Bum Genius diapers which my Mum had lovingly washed/prepared while she was here (Thanks Mama). We hope Levi will be big enough to fit well in the cloth diapers starting in a couple of weeks. I can't wait!
All that to say, the day didn't go quite as I planned. I didn't manage to get to the Post Office, but I did manage to cross a few things off the list around here and we did get out for a short walk. Plus, Levi is fed and in a clean diaper, and I managed to get dressed, I even put on make-up and straightened my hair and I brushed me teeth! We also read stories, well, I read them aloud and Levi acted unimpressed, but still I enjoyed snuggling with him.
Hoping to find more of a routine in the coming days and weeks. But I realise that for a while I am at the mercy of this little guys schedule. It's tough to surrender my time to another person in this way when I have things I want to get done in the day, but I am adjusting to the new reality and with each little smile Levi gives me, (gas or not) and every cute noise he makes, I am reminded that every sacrifice is so worth it.
Tomorrow is another day...and I am feeling a little more confident that I can do this...and have hope that I will enjoy it more and more as the days pass. I am also certain that making time for a quiet time each day will be more essential than ever...do they make a waterproof Bible so i can do that in the shower, killing two birds and all that jazz?
Here is my handiwork, diapers all ready to go!