A little P.S. from my last post; J and I got into a doozie of an argument Sunday night before bed. It wasn't about anything major, but both of us being tired and processing our own anxieties about the changes ahead in our lives plus pregnant hormones elevated it to quite the event. Some major discourse from the image of a story book happy ending - and then came the space to ask for and receive forgiveness, to chose to love, and to compromise. The beauty of discourse was revealed once more. That in the midst of the places we fear and avoid, we can truly find intimacy that would be impossible under different circumstances. Thoughts on this will be swishing around in my head for a while.
Anyway...this past weekend I was intentional to put into practice some of the things I had learned or reflected on during the women's retreat. One of which was to make more of an effort to reconnect with friends and make more of an effort to maintain the relationships I consider to be important in my life. On Friday night, we had dinner with our friends at their house which was fabulous! And then on Sunday and Monday I had coffee dates with friends that I had not seen in way too long. I feel as though I am already seeing the benefit from taking time to prioritise the rocks in my life! Just feeling more like myself, my heart's a little lighter.
For the past year of my life, if not longer I have been wanting to be a mum. I have dreamed about what that season of life would be. I have ideals and ideas of what it will look like. I am holding loosely to my expectations but I have been very much waiting to be a mother. I have tried along the way to be fully present in the life until that day but truthfully I've been waiting for this next season to begin.
And now motherhood is on the horizon I have suddenly been hit with revelation that I have only got 5 months or so left before baby and I am so curious to know what God has in store before my life takes that totally unknown turn to parenthood! I don't want to waste a second of the time I have left pre-baby!
I am having some slight regret for wishing away this season and am adamant that in these next five months I will dig in to all that is in store in my pre-mummy days!